A lot has changed in 9 months. And a lot is exactly the same as it was the last time I posted. I’m still in a joke of an alcoholic marriage and my husband continues to destroy his life drink by drink. I, on the other hand, was able to land a job – a dream job of sorts. I’d been trying to get into this company for about a year and a half and back in late July, I landed it. It’s very close to home which is great given the gas prices and I’m making more hourly than I have my whole life. The only bad part is that I only work part time. I hope that I’ll be able to move into another position in the company that provides more hours but I can’t complain for now. I’ve got fun coworkers and I enjoy what I do.
The worst part of my life is my husband. He still drinks more than he doesn’t. Only now he’s in contact with no one in AA and goes to no meetings. He has taken my car while I’ve been at work and driven drunk in it. He’s gotten drunk and forgotten to pick me up from work too. All in all, he is completely useless as a husband and provider. Since he graduated from school, he’s worked a total of about 25 days. Not consecutively and not for the same company. It’s a complete joke.
I think in a way I’ve gone into a bit of a depression. I don’t want to do much outside of working and then coming home. Money is tighter than ever and even though its my dream job, I second-guess my decision to take it. If my husband worked, it’d be no problem but its hard to support both of us on part time pay. I also wish I knew what was wrong with me for staying with an alcoholic for over fourteen years now.
Well, I just thought I’d update in case some people still came by to check on me. I’m sorry to report that its all still the same with me.
The Alcoholic Marriage 