Him or me? You be the judge.
No, I still have not filed for divorce. I also am not trying to make him my best friend, either. I’ve been working my job…loving it…then I come home to his shit. Actually, he was in one of the most foul moods he’s capable of and when I hear that acute anger in his voice, it scares me. I’m not sure why, but it does. I’m certain, though that he thinks I’m having an affair. Just the comments I hear from him and not to mention all that anger. So let me be the first to tell you that unfortunately I’m not, but I sure wish I were. At least it’d keep me entertained! I still feel very strongly that I AM going to make a change this year. I really, really just want him out.
So naturally he’s still drinking because as he tells me, it’s all he thinks about. We’ll I sure wish he’d go think about it at a park bench or homeless shelter. He’s being just really foul with me and I hate him for it.
News flash…my mom told me my grandparents don’t like him. That actually surprises me because my grandparents like everyone. My mom told me that my Grandpa commented on how worthless he is and that he doesn’t contribute to anything. How true.
So I need the encouragement, guts, prayers and good vibes that I’ll actually be out of this all very, very soon.
The Alcoholic Marriage 