He went to a meeting last night – the first in quite some time; I believe he considers it his home group. He had met a lot of great people going to this meeting, one of which was the person who sponsored him when he had his longest run of sobriety ever – 6 months. I drop him off and then go visit a friend and then wait for him to call him after the meeting to pick him up. While I was sitting in the car waiting for him, I saw his friends giving him really sincere hugs (that sounds kinda silly but true). It’s hard for me to look at these guys and imagine that they’ve done the same things my husband has. They all seem so normal! When I see them accept him back time and time again, I know they understand. It makes me feel happy to know he has support and I wish he would just take it from them. He didn’t seem too happy to go while we were on the way there, but he did say that if he doesn’t go, he’ll quickly forget where he was last week, and drink again.
Last week, he drank and got pretty bad. He had agreed to go to detox and a few hours later, he called me at work and asked me to come get him. I thought maybe he got kicked out because he’d been there so many times before. No. He just “couldn’t take it”. I was furious and refused to let him back into the house. His mom went to get him at detox and ended up taking him to a hotel (basically next door to our house!) and gave him beer. I was so angry. I ended up being able to trade him cigarettes for the beer that was left and he ended up detoxing on his own. This all happened on election day, which also angers me because he didn’t vote. I told him the next time he drinks, I’m going to bring people in (friends and family) and move him out to the street. So, I hope he decides to do the right thing this time.
I hope he continues to go to meetings. I can’t take another week of this drinking drama.