This weekend I had a lot of fun celebrating my birthday with different people. Friday I went shopping and out to dinner with some friends and when we got home, the friend who I’m staying with and I went to another friend’s house just to talk. We ended up staying there till 4am! Let me tell you – I’m not used to staying up that late anymore! It was a lot of fun though, and I’m glad I did it, even if I felt crappy and hungover all the next day (I didn’t drink, I just felt that way from only having 4 hours of sleep).
Saturday my friend and I just schlepped around, shopping, tanning and eating. It was fun. My husband wasn’t drinking and wanted to get together, but I was tired (physically) and tired of him. All we ended up doing was me driving him to a meeting and dropping him off later in the evening. I don’t think he was happy. Sunday I went to visit with my some family. Husband came along and frowned the whole time. What a pleasure to spend time with him!
This morning I had to pick him up for school and he barely spoke to me during the ride there. I finally asked him if there was a reason he wasn’t talking to me. He said, “I just don’t have anything to say. Don’t you get like that sometimes, or is it just me? I guess it’s just me.” So when I dropped him off at school I told him to try and have a good day, but I know he won’t. I know he will brood and be angry all day about his life. About his marriage and the fact that he can’t drive. I’ve told him time and time again that drinking is the reason for every part of unhappiness in his life. I don’t think he makes the connection.
He’s mad because I’m not home with him and that I am spending less time with him. I don’t think that I should keep putting effort into something that is just wasting away anyway. He doesn’t put effort into the marriage, why should I?
I have to work job 1 &2 today. Oh joy.
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